random ass shit.

I think an issue with me not fully wanting to go to school is a rebellion against fufillment through careers. Ridiculous rebellion, I know, but a big part of me is saying "fuck that, I don't want to be one of those assholes who feel as though their career is their life and the center of their achievement" and I know, again, ridiculous. Part two of me says "I don't want to sit in class next to these assholes who parent's paid for their school, pay their rent, andunknowingly pay for their coke habit" I don't know what I want, I do know that besides in a sexual sense, I am not an feminin girl. Don't get angry stephie gender studies love, I don't mean it in the sense of "girls have to be one way and guys another" but, for better or worse, they are usually different. I just don't feel as thought I often think and react the way a girl would. I sometimes do when it comes to romantic situations, but I think that may be about it, and that is not often. I think if I was male, I would be living a very different life.