self defense

I think its unfortunate how the majority of people view sexual exploration. I didn't realize how much our enviroment social experience/group classification effects our sexual interest and approach to it. Even the difference between Utah and New York is huge. In SLC, i felt that my own experiences there were much more repressed and awkward which, considering I'm a bit of a hussy, i gathered must be culturally influenced. Here, people, from my limited experience, are much more sexually comfortable and confident. They know what they want, what they like, and are not afraid to share that with the other person. And oddly, for the first time I feel like I'm put in situations where I am able to voice that as well without repression. Sorry for the graphic nature of this post, but even the difference of genre's of people (and I don't care what you say, genre's exist. electro, hip-hop, rap, house, emo, hardcore, metal, I am not trying to limit anyone or judge by categorizing but it has proven to be nothing short of prevelent and until proven otherwise in a majority standpoint, I see it as applicable) seems to have a huge influence on what they like sexually and whether or not they feel comfortable expressing that, or, if they're even aware of what they like. I think a lot of what makes us who we are, are our carnal instincts. Fight or flight, raw reactions, and sexually based instincts and desires. Now i'm not saying its wise to act on all of these, if that were the case I would be a violent, territorial nightmare, but I'm saying its things I think we should be more in touch with our carnal instincts to better understand and build ourselves in every aspects. what the fuck do I know, its christmas and i'm in my pj's smoking papers that had pickle juice spilled on them and writing a blog.